First...a big hug to you all.
I'm pleased as punch with the concern,
level of insight and pertinent answers
I've received.

Every answer has touched a nerve. I feel
supported and I'm encouraged to focus,comtemplate
and look at this problem differently.

Your answers have made me aware that confidence
is multifaceted. I have several issues which
need sorting. Thanks again.

Behaviorally this is what I'm experiencing.
Perhaps you can chime in some more and hopefully
it will help others as well.
1) I get an idea...start it then abandon it

because of thoughts which say " you're

not an expert in this", or "this has all

been covered before", "this won't work".

I then start researching the topic then

compare myself to others who've done this

particular thing. I give up....and then

wait for another idea and the cycle starts

again.
2) Another thing I do is to start thinking

of all my deficiencies rather than my

strengths...I talk to others and listen

to their discouraging remarks..I start

analyzing how much time the project will

take etc.

Bottom line: "I find too many reasons to
procrastinate"

I will be looking for your material Gordon
and Dien because I know I need help and
understanding and I think you both are sincere
in your intentions...
Thanks again...