Chasing tail

Hello everyone. This is my second visit to this site (first was yesterday). I came here searching for ideas and direction. I have tried and researched many different types of ideas and business opportunities. I have my hand in many different pots. I market bird hangers, I am technical recruiter (for a living), I rehab homes and rent them, I am pursing waste consulting (reducing companies disposal bills) and I am still not happy or have found my niche. Some of this is related to my personality, which as I have become older (35)makes it harder for me to overcome. I make a okay living doing what I do and I have lost the ability to be patient enought to start small in my ventures (small rewards vs. big rewards). My biggest problem is "PATIENTS". I feel like I am so far behind, that I need to make a quick score to validate the many years of my pursuit for the one thing that will make me happy in my business endeavors. I need immediate gratification and I need direction. Someone or something that will show me right away if I on the right track. That can be in the form of money or personal advice. I have been on my own for a long time and have always been self sufficient. I know though that I need more and have yet to find that person or thing that will fill this void. I work from home and everyday I get my twin boys ready for daycare and I drop them off and then I have anxiety over what I am going to accomplish today that will put everything in order for me. I do this every day and after a few years this really wears on you. Will someone send me some seeds of widsom or something that has worked for them? I do not know how much longer I can keep chasing my tail. My entrep. drive is becoming a anvil around my neck that I can not get rid of to accomplish what I am trying to find. Also, don't let me get my copy of Inc. Mag. in the mail and read all about the successful businesses and people who run million dollar companies in their PJs. Then I really freak our and start searching for my niche in triple time. This is my dilemma (please excuse any spelling...no spell check here)

Jake