Shakespeare..."Blitzing"...Skepticism...Momentum

Hi John,

I can identify with where you are right now, and I thought I'd share with you some things that have helped me.

First, about your Mom. You're in your 30s. That means your parents were raised by people who lived through the depression. Depending on their age, they might have experienced some of it, early in life.

That's a biggie. They're fixed on never being hungry again, keeping a "good" job, and generally trying to live as if the paradigm of life in the US hasn't shifted. And they won't change. You must.

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I believe I read something of Og Mandino's that said essentially "keep it to yourself." You'll get a brilliant, workable idea, share it with somebody before you begin to implement it, and before you know it, they'll convince you of why it won't work.

About the Mom thing, take her advice - - at least as far as she knows. Get the applications, ask her a few questions (even if you know the answers!) let her see you "off to the mailbox." Check with her everyday to see if there's been a response. Ask her for other possibilities.

(Of course, if you don't want any of those jobs, you won't *really* mail the letters . . . you just let her think you did. It'll preempt some of the criticism that your subconscious doesn't need right now.) Let her think she's really helpful and that you're acting on her suggestions.
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In terms of thinking about the present situation I had some LOOOONNNG talks with myself.

I knew certain things:

Everything that is not a part of the natural world began in the mind of somebody, as a thought. That same mechanism, thought, that can produce airplanes and cars and footstools and *stuff* can alter your present situation. It can change what reality is.

I know that my reality is shaped by my attention- the deliberate application of my thinking -to that present reality.

If I dwell on lack, I get more lack. This is a world of plenty, and we all have the equipment we need to produce "something" from "nothing."

I know. It's getting pretty "far out there," but it works for me. Every minute I spend thinking about what I don't have, and what I can't do and why, is a minute I spend NOT taking a step toward what I CAN do, what I want to do.

Even now, I'm writing. And enjoying it. I could remind myself of a thousand other things I "should" be doing. But right now, I'm writing. This minute, and for as long as this post takes.

I've given up the habit of "shoulding" on myself.

I've given up thinking there's something I need to do first.

I know longer accept that what I want to do must be evaluated and/or sanctioned by somebody before I begin it.

I let go of projecting "future" happiness - future prosperity - future whatevers.

All I have is NOW.

Hell, nobody's promised me an "after," or a "when." There could be a Mack truck out there just waiting for me . . .

I saw Oprah's name mentioned in one of the threads. I admire and respect her, and I listen to what she says - I listen very carefully to her offhand comments . . .

Once on a show (have no clue what the show was about) she happened to say something like ". . .so everyday when I'm in the tub with my candles and scents, I close my eyes and visualize what I want my day to be like."

Powerful stuff, visualization. Of course, I think that belief in its power precedes the benefits of any visualization . . . thoughts are, indeed, things. What you hold in your mind is what is ultimately manifest in your existence.

Exorcise "can't" from your vocabulary. Think instead, "not Yet," or "not immediately clear to me."

Get rid of "NO." Think "Not in this way, not at this time, not with person x's help. . ."

Prosperity is a decision you make. I have only to envision a woman in Afganistan or one of those other places, draped in that crap, to know how truly prosperous I am.

I've begun to behave like Eubie Blake did. He chose, every day, to be happy. His choice was responsible for our having a ton of memorable tunes - stuff people the world over hum frequently.

Just recently, I found myself totally engrossed in an undertaking that literally ripped every negative thought, every inkling of want totally out of me for the duration of the project. I was OK. (Any so-called IT expert who, on hearing what I planned, could give me song and verse on why I couldn't do it. Yet, before the month is out, I will be hosting my own domain on my own server.)

These days, I recall that "zoned feeling" and I try to let myself have it with as many of the things I do as I can. And I'm getting better at it.

I'm building my own server, and in studying documentation to learn what I needed to secure the thing so I can go live, I lost an entire day! (Yesterday, in fact.)

Yep. Rolled outta bed about 5:30a.m., got busy, and around what I thought was noon, I went to the store.

Imagine my shock (and subsequent delight) to find that it was 6:30p.m., and that I'd spent the entire day totally engrossed in my project!

Will it lead to money? I quit wanting money. (I can get a job. I figure that none of the resumes or applications I've put in have paid off because maybe, just maybe, I'm communicating to them that I don't want the damned job in the first place! When I've saved enough, I'm going to get a copy of Remote Hypnosis to try and validate that)

I quit *WANTING* a lot of stuff. Like Gordon, I value my time to just think. I've come to the conclusion that just the wanting, itself may be an obstacle.

(Yeah, I'm out there, again!)

Think about it. Would you rather WANT the Lottery Jackpot, or would you rather HAVE it? If thoughts are really things, as I believe, which thought puts you closer to the jackpot?

I'm signing off, now. I've been rambling, and maybe my thinking is way out of line. Sometimes I just need to communicate the stuff I need to absorb.

Thanks for your patience,

Marye

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